wandering

I am recalling a reasonably perilous journey through the snow up a winding path with a severe drop off to the left,its not exactly a long walk,though it is out in the middle of nowhere,on a plateau was a tiered bamboo structure,in fact a school,the reason for its being where it was is isolation,meditation, the reason for the visit ,     to remember,    to wake up parts which had fallen into slumber.

Remembering this caused me to re-read Matthiessens book The snow Leopard,          and on part of his journey to the Edge of Tibet,he is watching the happy goings on of the Sherpas ,and he writes”It is the task,not the employer that is served” and that the doing matters more than the reward,which though does have its reward in freedom,its sadly rather appalling though that the control freaks of the world wish to take advantage of this,and its saddening that the world has to wait for the actions of greed to be realized world wide,in order for some semblance of harmony to be able to be brought into being,ignorance is creating suffering,            and yet its not that THEY don’t know,THEY just don’t care.

And this ignorance is abundant on so many levels,I am about to start a project for a local school,planting a sensory garden for the children,the headmistress wants hands at the bottom,the hands as a symbol of prayer,WHY ?,BECAUSE ITS A ROMAN CATHOLIC SCHOOL, and the kids aged 6,7,and upwards are filled with this mindless shit every single day, the religion is” senseless ” in its self,but driving it into the minds of children is just totally totally misguided and DANGEROUS,

so i find myself serving the task,yet HELPING something which i abhor, CONTROLLED CONDITIONING.

I often now see myself between a rock and a hard place,      do i like my Grandmothers people of BURMA allow the suffering to continue,or does the warrior spirit within me say NO,ITS ALL GONE TO DAMN FAR,

the Shamanic principle which is an inherent part of my makeup,knows that i have access and means to deal with these people who are abusing  others,             i dont know that i can continue ,and carry on watching the madness,THE PLANET WILL ALWAYS SURVIVE,IT DOES NOT NEED US,

I HAVE ALWAYS FELT THAT “TALKING” HAS ITS MERITS,          BUT THE PEOPLE LISTENING IS FAR OUTWAYED, BY PEOPLE WHO DON’T LISTEN OR DON’T CARE!

Yes, nature is being damaged as well,             BUT i was always taught to deal with the cause not the end result,THE CONTROLLERS, ARE THE CANCER.

I will dwell on this and decide.